I haven't been on here lately.  Ihaven't been on myspace, either.  Or on R/F.  I don't know why.  Part of it is that I've been busy with work and getting into school.  Part of it is that, after allof that, I want to watch TV with Mark for a while and go to bed.  Mostly, though, I think it's because we can't go to faire.  Even after all of our friends told us they would do whatever they could to help us go - and my gosh, guys, you will never know how much we appreciate that - but, even after that,w ecould not go.  Mark just couldn't get off work.  I wish he could have, but it wasn't happening.  He told me to go without him, that I shouldn't miss faire because he couldn't go.  I told him there was no way that was happening.  I couldn't do that.  If he didn't care about faire, then I would go without him.  But he loves faire, and I coudn't just leave him here alone, working, while I went off to faire to have fun witout him.  I would have felt horrible all weekend.  Besides, who would I snuggle up next to in the tent?

At any rate, that left me feeling pretty low.  I've tried to brush it off - you know, taking a "Well, these things happen" attitude.  The fact is, I'm sad.  I wanted to be at faire. 

Well, Excal isn't over yet though, and maybe we can figure out some way to go before it is over.  What I do know is that sitting around, feeling bad because we couldn't make it to faire, or because finances are tight, or because neither of us loves our job... well, moping around feeling crappy isn't going to change any of those things.